Wow, it has been wayyy too long. Funny, I visit almost everyday to see the work of all the incredibly talented folks I follow, but I haven't had anything really interesting to post.

Until now...

I'm losing my job. That's really the whole thing in a nutshell. Of course, it's more complicated and nuanced than that, what isn't?

So, XL Films, for whom I have worked for a little over five years has decided to dissolve. The partners called a meeting with the employees (all two of us) and told us that they were going their separate ways and we had a month left of operations before they closed the doors. Now, they were more emotional than the way I worded it, but that was basically it. They're doing with no ill will and without any animosity, "It's just time." would be a good quote if I was thinking clearly enough at the time to remember exactly everything they said. So, come May 30th I have no full-time job.

To say I was angry would be an understatement. I don't think I spoke to either partner much the rest of that day. I doubt I have to tell any of you what was going through my mind. Rent, food, how was I going to take care of my cat... how I was I going to take care of my mom? No savings, no cushion , no real help is around me to prop me up for awhile. The day could have went a very bad direction, but I focused on the work I had, kept my mouth shut and by the next day, things were calmer.

During the meeting the idea of freelancing for both partners as they set up their own new entities came up. In fact, they all but guaranteed it. I also found out that, apparently, I am well thought of in Houston for what I do and that several folks are pretty interested in working with me in some capacity. These realizations made the next few days much easier to go through. I honestly had no idea that, outside of a few folks, I had made much impact clustered behind the wall at XL Films. I'm learning that's not the case and that I have a real chance and taking advantage of this sudden event.

So, after a few days of contemplation, I have decided to give the freelance road a try. I am scared shit-less by this, I'm not ashamed to say, but I'm also pretty excited about it, too. If all works out I'll be in a better place than I've ever been and if it doesn't I'll just go back to working for someone else, that's really the worst thing that happen. Well, there's homelessness, but I'm hoping that won't be the case. If I bust my ass, work smart and think right I should be able to pull this off. There's something to be said to taking care of myself as my own project, instead of doing it for someone else.

I'll be posting more, I'm sure, now that all this is going down. I mean, I actually have something somewhat interesting to post now. If you want to see how I'm positioning myself and the work I'll be trying to do, give my website a visit, ingramworks.com. Wish me luck, if you would be so kind. If it goes horrible I'll try to give an update from under the bridge.